Go Ahead

July already.
the time is running very fast.
I stay here already three month already
I earn two thousand eight hundred ...
no too much, but I'm still happy when I get the money
for now I'm writing a novel.
a story about my second high school life and people..
and have little about my college life.

that is a long story,I don't know when I can finish it,
and when I finish it, what I need to do for complete like a book..
well...
maybe don't think too much first..
the first thing is I need to complete the story and the picture first.
and one more thing is I need to finish my study first..
this is no way can go back..
all I can do is keep going..
for finish my dream
finish the book
this is enough for me

but not at all
that just is the first thing I need to do..
go ahead!

Yes!
I can do it!!!

Recently

Long time no come here already.
then no mean I'm busy or working.
just no mood come here to write something only.

well..
just talking about recently what I'm doing.I working at a small company, but say it is small, them also got 30++ staffs working on there. more of them is animator. seven include me is illustrator.although I no do animation, but stay at company one mouth ago. I already know some knowledge about an animation process.well, this is just only basic.but this is good for me to learning something.


And second is all my colleagues them chat is use in English. not all but most.
the company more is Malay colleague. them normal chat is use Malay.talking with me was use English. Except my supervise. he English not really good.hehe.well, is ok. although my BM not really good, but still can hear he(I think),but I really hope all of them talk with me use English. although I also can't understand. but at less I can hear the work. I can learn, I can touch..whatever.

well, there also got Chinese working at then err... eight people I think. sometime we have get lunch together. is them chat use English also? the answer is sometime. as I know, have two person them normal language is English(Maybe three?)them read English paper. watch English Movie(no Chinese subtitle!, but some of they have English subtitle).but, some time them well chat in Chinese.what can I say? them really good.

than you well ask, them chat used English, than how about me? haha~

actually, I really less to talk.very very less. when I talk, also used Chinese.I have no enough confidence and practice to use English. (say serious, I have no idea how can I live at other west country)well, my head was paining...just don think about if first..

Decide

will..
Today I have do a lot of research about the school..college..KLCC..room and something this few days I need to decide..
the first thing need to do is....ya..improve..haiz..

All of this really make me tired..I know...no body can help me, and no body can guide me a nice way to do it..（Actually, I have asking many people about that, include Miss Tan/NEC teacher/My aunt(a teacher)/some friend)but..them tell me that methods of studies is very personality.the methods of them is not useful to me.

(p/s: All the methods will need so much money...)

so...

I have to find a way to continue my studies..
yes..I can do it right?~hehe~~

Wasting

hehe~
I think...
I have waste today also...
At first I have planing today need to do the portfolio and tomorrow go to cziplee print out..
but I also know my Character..I already know I will not going to do that..
so..
today what have I done?~
will...
I have get the friend at Facebook who study at the college,but need tomorrow ask he something..
because he was time to sleep...
Tomorrow monitor have create a party. she have invite we go her home..
don't know have how many classmate have go her party ...cause we have graduation already, and now was during Chinese New Year..many people without at hometown, some of them was go to play and stay with family right?~~

will..
mast be improve....

Design Life

Well...
After Chinese New Year,I come back to Kajang..
I think...
I'm rested enough at CNY..
Although today I have do nothing..
But I know something I have to do it..
continue study/ find tutorial/ print portfolio/ check out the Ria bedroom/ cut the P1 line/.....
and something I don't know yet..but have to do thing...

Never design your character like a garden where anyone can walk. Design your character like the sky where everyone desire to reach

I like this sentence..
well...
I can do it right? :)

Lazy Now

you know,
just like what I guess
I'm lazy now...
I'm lazy to do my artwork..
I'm waiting for the last minute or what?
or I think that is has given divided already ?~
well~~
I have no any propulsion to do it...
now...

but I know I will do it at the last minute
before 5 January 2012
ya...

I know...
I have many thing need to do..

Tired

This few days..

I have no learning anything..
don't know why...
maybe..
just tired? just feeling boring?
or just thinking this is no meaning..?..

some time, like now...
I asking myself why I try to study so difficult?~
study is a fun thing? is study too hard, then we except study nothing, also feeling very pressure right?~

So....
Ya..

This few days I'm feeling some pressure, tired, boring. some difficult and I feeling"fuck it"
And sometime I think very much..
I mean...I study because I hope have a great diploma, or degree？ or I can speak smooth and fluent English, so I can give a nice job..

after I got a nice job, I can earn a lot of money, and then I can use the money to "buy" a great future or life? I can have a better life, I can really enjoy my life and this is all I want..

But ..when I'm a student, except homework have some pressure, my life of now is very plentiful isn't?
I no need to work, I no need cope girlfriend (although I have no gf, but this is not just a pretense, I mean if I have gf..I maybe will lose something...maybe I won't continue to study or something?~en......)

So..
All I want to say is, now I life is not nothing bad right? so I enjoy it right now, and I like when to study then I study,I like when to play or sleep then I go to play or sleep..
ya..this is what I want..

But...
I also know, this is what time I need to study..I mean...I'm student right?~
student sure need to study now, If go work..that ..haiz..

I know what should I do...but not now, I mean.. I'm tired now..and now is holiday, anybody some go home, some playing, some planing go travel...

But also have somebody continue study something? some improve them artwork, some learn more technical, and some maybe planing studies road or working road or something..ya...maybe/..

anyway..
this is all what I want to say...
maybe tomorrow I will feeling better...maybe...
ya...I am ok..
this is nothing big deal..
=)

Have Done Nothing Half Day

Today I have done nothing at half day(I think is 4pm to 8pm....or 9pm?)
But at 1pm to 3:30pm, I have go to bay a ticket of train, and my parent have sand money to my, so I have take out 4 hundred to use, but the bill for P1 was wanna RM129, haiz

And the ticket need 23 Ringgit, so 400-129-23 = 248 Ringgit Right?~Yes,you right = =

248 need save 0ne hundred to spare to use when I have no money..

so

just remain 148 can to use...and I still want stay here play 5 day(to Tuesday), and tomorrow need go to watch movie..the ticket need 9 Ringgit..aiya...little money? = =

ok, just now I said I have done nothing right?~is 4pm to 8pm, that time I have 4 to 6pm watch Vampire Diaries and play the computer noob game, and the 6 to 8 pm I have to play DotA with computer = =

ya, this is very boring thing what I'm doing .....

You Are The Apple Of My Eye

Today go to jusco to watch movie..you r the apple of my eye..

ya...that is a really nice movie when I see...I love the story for the book n the movie..But I think the movie is the best more than the movie, because the movie can not express some feeling at sometime..

ya...love is beautiful, =)


And one more thing is Vincent fail in love?
Because he have happy mood at this afternoon, but after we saw the movie come out, he is express bad mood...

haiz...

Love is beautiful right..but also have very sad story..
Hope he is fire....

I'm free now XD

finally....
I'm finish the astronomy examination..
ya..I'm free now,after exam I will go to eat KFC and go to cc play DotA with friend..

Now is back home relax now haha...long time no feel like that le...

Now I can do anything I want to do..I can play game, play DotA, watch movie, play music, draw something I like to draw...no need to see that time when I want to pass up or anything...

but....I know this is no longer to play or what..
because after December, I want to plan study le,haizzzzz...that is many problem need to solve...and have many way or some questions is I don't know, I don't know how to application, how to contact them, what need to do and how much go to ... how much there price to life and where r I life....ahhhh!!!~~~

shit...

nothing is know ...and the big problem is my English is very bad...shit!!~
If I go to there, I speak :"ah...er....oh.....!!!????"wtf!!~how can I speak like that????

them will laugh me n say me is noob,noob Aisa people, noob Malaysia people!!!~wuwuwuuw1~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I need to improve my English, but I know that is very hard!~

hope one day...
I can talk v English, I can use English to conversation.
enen....

lazy ahhh

If I want to do something....
I think than wanna doing now....

I have many idea to do many thing, but I always think if I have more time to do it...
than T will procrastination，when I procrastination I will not do it.because I think next day I have time to do it...than I procrastination..procrastination..I have doing nothing.....

one mouth two mouths one year two years was gone..nothing artwork or article or something professional thing come out..haizz..

I'm very thanks my teacher, although them...or I think them have not teach me so many skill and knowledge.(or them got teach I have never learn it~XD) But I very grateful them can urge me...ya urge me..that is very important to me..

you know ... I'm a very lazy to do everything...Include my homework, my work,and play a game also same...ya I'm lazy to do them..but if have a people can urge me, make me don't lazy and procrastination thing..I can do a professional artwork, article (this just I thinking la)

But oh...I also very hate have people to control my time and take it..I love freedom, if control my freedom and my time, I will very unhappy and offended..ya..haiz..

I think this is call character??~......haiz...don't worry about it...

alalalalalalallalalal...........

ok la

tomorrow I have the astronomy examination at 1:30pm(friend tell me, I have no idea what time and date to exam = =)

so........tonight I want to study the astronomy knowledge, I wanan to see the power point all night??,,,,haiz....lazy la, because I never wash my clothes ah!!~~fuck it!~~shit!~~~

beautiful dream

Today, I dreamed I had a little sister.

That is very fantastic because I had no sister.

but in my dream,I know her were my sister,
she is 5 or 6 years old I guess,very cute ,and play with me.

well,all along ,I just have a brother,I guess this is y I hope my parent can give me a sister n y i dream it.

that is a beautiful dream for me n it were just a dream,hehe~~~~