A Competition..

Well,for nothing,
I just want to write down something,but I don't want to write some need use my brain or some need correct pronunciation to do it..

to write it..

ya

so..
that is why I come here and bull shit something...
well,
them say this is a way to improve English..
Maybe I just try to do it..

I like to write something no need use my brain..
I can write anything I like in my mind.
so,
really,
I dislike to join something like competition or something text.
them give me a subject and I need to thing about how to complete the subject or how to win the competition..
this is really boring thing to me..
and I dislike it..

now,I need to join a competition is about a illustration and a paragraph.
the subject is "I believe in myself"...Well, WTF is it? the subject if is like happiest or believe in other person , than I maybe can thing one or two about the subject, if the subject is Love or Family that  is no problem to my to thank about some paragraph or illustration to draw....

But about believe in myself like this.
I have nothing idea to draw or write............

but I hope I can find out the idea to draw and write it on this few days...
because this is what I really good in..
and the first winner can get five thousand Ringgit.
this is really interesting to my..

Good Luck^^

November,
time is very fast past ago..

finally, I create my own page on Facebook.
And I also start my own novel at the blog.

Well..I hope I can Persist to do it.
I need more support from family and friend,
and maybe more and more people that I doesn't know.
they well really pushing my go on and on..

I hope every things will be fine,
hope the day of success will coming!
Good Luck..
For myself^^

About..

err...
I have buy a book
actually is a lot of the book about learning English.
But I think that is not use for me..
I mean....yes... maybe they are very good book..is good for learning English..
But I have no read it, how could I learn it?

I'm lazy or what? or not really like English, maybe I should focus at Chinese language.
No!!
I can't think like that!

I like English,
I Dreaming some day I can hear they at movie or radio or talk with real people....
I really want like that...
but no more the confident and no more practice only?
haiz....
I'm dislike my habit of lazy...
I need to improve myself !

Go Ahead

July already.
the time is running very fast.
I stay here already three month already
I earn two thousand eight hundred ...
no too much, but I'm still happy when I get the money
for now I'm writing a novel.
a story about my second high school life and people..
and have little about my college life.

that is a long story,I don't know when I can finish it,
and when I finish it, what I need to do for complete like a book..
well...
maybe don't think too much first..
the first thing is I need to complete the story and the picture first.
and one more thing is I need to finish my study first..
this is no way can go back..
all I can do is keep going..
for finish my dream
finish the book
this is enough for me

but not at all
that just is the first thing I need to do..
go ahead!

Yes!
I can do it!!!

Limited

I was limited in the box...
...
I want design something~
but when I come back, I already very tired at all..
can play few minutes Facebook. and than was the time to bed...
Saturday and Sunday wanna take a rest...
I hv design the idea at company, today I plan when I come back, at less draw some at paper..
but I just hv one hour..take a bath and Brush my teeth, that is no enough time to do...
really limited myself ...


is the time to quit the job?
is the time to find a new job?
or just can continue only..
the freelance is can't earn per day RM50(my frd per day RM60)...
I need to pay my internet and rent room money...and every days eat and Daily necessities...

I really need the money..
to do anything I want..
if do the thing I like, and can earn money..this is more good at all...
I want find a job I love and can Feed themselves..
if can..earn more money is nothing bad....
salary is not only way can earn money...
but other way to earn money..
the first thing is you need a lot of money to do that thing...
dream or reality..
can I mix them?~~~
can do it Together?~
can, but need find the way....

this is what I need to do...
find the way...
 

Every days I force myself to do something~
(I hope that is working)
like, must write this boring blog,or you can call it diaries/drily or test whatever.
and other thing is must do a little bit artwork...
once，I think I need to focus what I need to do~
but I'm wrong, cause if a people who always do a same thing all the day/week, that is really bored, even if that thing starting is very Interesting. people need to rest, need to charge, mean them need take a rest. maybe go check Facebook, go watch some movie,listen music see comic~XD


that can Simultaneously....
this remind me some story about that. like some people say that can just focus he job and ignore he family...or he girlfriend...
when I'm student at college..I also like that..
say I can just focus a homework only..if too many homework we can't handle it anymore...
well, that just excuse for the lazy student like me..I mean..the worker some of them can do the job eighteen hours or more, why we can't do the homework like that?~~why we want spend the time at playing?playing like computer game, playing Facebook, read comic playing football basketball volleyball badminton，go singing, go watch movie, go date..

well...but some time.. the teacher really crazy one(some of them)..like during holiday, can we just take a rest during holidays? but the teacher given we a lot of homework go back to do. I remember once her want we do six whole the workbook during a month holiday.well, maybe you say you have whole the month can do that, but who wanna do homework during whole the holiday?....well..this happening just happen at primary school...now I recall that...I feeling  the teacher is really crazy and abnormal one..really = ="

Have A Nice Day :)

well~~
today have a little crazy day I think....
first thing is,
today when I wake up, I really feeling very bad at all,I'm tired, hungry, no mood at all, and many bad emotion.
but second thinking is, this situation is fate or something like that? or just only a normal part on my life, that have nothing meaning..just a happening only.
when I arrive work place, I still thinking about it~
I thinking this is only 2 situation can be happening, if not I will very angry on He(my supervise).
first one is really have many job need to do(cause is call me coming back just do that normal job,that one I can finish at the deadline job only,I say that I can finish at deadline already than why still want me working at the just tow days can break day?）

second one is, ok fine ,that is nothing can do at company, than maybe we can just do at morning or afternoon only,(if nothing can do still want me still that until seven pm, I will mad too, although I mad already)

when I arrive company, a strange happening, I arrive at 9:45,and I saw the door is open, when I going up the stairs, I saw he coming down and say that the key is wrong, and than we going out and he close the door = =

and that I asking he what the meaning? that mean I can go home? = =
he say the key is wrong already and can't get in the company,so can't do anything = =

well..well..well..
of course I feeling happy, but still have little perplex is that I wake up early and come here for what? = = for nothing?~~~ = =

ok
I decide go to one u watch movie, although the recent new and best movie I saw already, but never mind, any movie also can, cause I need Appease the sense of dissatisfaction I get up early.

And I also think if really no any nice movie to see, I see witch movie is coming soon or looking for some book shop also can....

well~~

I saw "Brave" in 3D, cause the 2D want 27th just coming, and other movie not I saw already, than is not my favorite. 
well~~~3D some of the effect is really good, but some time the screen is very blur and not clean at all..

oh...one more thing is siting at my left side is a single younger girl~~hehe~~

well~~~and than I go popular buy 2 really inexpensive book of Giddens, and buy a USB adder, and some Note and a gum ...use RM82, and the movie ticket RM18, so I already use RM100 at one day, and the bus come and back RM4 and my lunch and dinner RM9 and a fruit honeydew RM1, so that day I use RM114 already~~(wow, I good to use money a day? = =)

I coming back at 3pm,and than take a break and get internet and sleep hour and a haft. and the house is no body at home this moment. so I have a quiet and nice afternoon. that feeling is really good at all, and I more like it :)


well~~~
hope every body have a nice day :)

Bored

this is an old post at my desktop, and I'm be bored to see it at my desktop.
so I now drop it at here and I can delete it already.wahahahaha~

this is the first one but I forget write down the date, but I think is same the day or before the day only. 

19 May 2012.(or before):

Ok, I think I try to learn more English at this moment, because I cannot get internet here, (or you can say for now only?) wherever, I still learning more English right now. Well, some time I’m lazy to learn, cause this is boring thing right? Although I feeling interesting before, but if all my word(I mean the easy word for me) already use or write down, then I need to find out another word not yet write down, this is difficult to thinking, to discovery or something like that. When that happen, I well feel lazy to read, or learn, or thinking, or something…….

Anyway, I already write down something right? Per day can learn one word that I feeling happy already. No need ten word or more. And I no need to “Must remember” this way.If don’t remember, this is ok for me, because some word when you have saw it before, you must have something impress at your mind. Although you can’t remember it, but still can spell the Spelling, or remember some of the word, or can say “Hei, I Saw it before, although I can’t remember” 

19 May 2012, today is Saturday, no need go to work, and I have no planning go where watch movie or shopping or something need to do at outside. Today except go out buy my dinner and lunch, I all the day were at my room. 

And today have a new housemate come this house. Is 2 Chinese girl, just at beside my room only. I not yet meet them, so, I cannot tell you is they beauty or not, but I think they the one already have boyfriend….wow! wait a minute !! what I thinking for? = = is that mean they one will be my girl or something? What I always thinking like this? = = oh my god = =….ok ok..is ok, just…like this….

well, I no need girlfriend right now, cause I still need go to New Zealand next year, if I already have a girlfriend, I want she wait me one year again? My Ex girlfriend(I think she is?)already can’t wait me 3 year when I still study at New Era College(maybe less at 3 years, the year I know her is the last at 2009).well, wherever, this already is past of my life, although I don’t know is her is my or what..oh fuck, I hate this past in my life, Why all I love they didn’t no love me, then is too far? what happen in my life for the “love” part ? 

The lonely sometime I feeling no so good, although some time I love it, but something, I still need someone to talk, or sharing something , maybe some feeling what I get, or some happening in my life, or some in  my mind…haiz~ Never mine, I still can standing up, I remember some day, maybe tomorrow or some future, I can find the who I lone, I she will love me back, the special one. I know I will find out you!!~~~

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ok,

this is all,when I not have internet yet, I write it at my computer.

talking about my life without internet and without love = =

well,now I can delete it already,when I want read it back, I think I can find it at here = =

ok, really time to sleep le, like just now I say,I'm felling tired and tomorrow still need to work,(again, really suck = =)

Work saturday !

the legend of korra,my colleague say that is nice animation~
so I take it from company and start to watch~
when I start seeing ,my feeling is "wow!~why the concept is very same like the story I wanna tr to draw at comic?~"
really!~
the concept I already thinking at my mind before I saw the animation~
yes~
have a longer story in my mind~
and I'm try to write it down and then draw it to a comic~
but have many cause, so i won't start it first~(actually one of the reason is lazy la~hehehe~~~)

and one thing I want to say is tomorrow I still need go to work~
really boring really sian~
I can handing my work~
I mean, I can finish my job at the deadline, than why I still want come back to work ?~
that is because my supervise he late doing he job,and my job is need to retake by he,he late do he job, so implicate me now~
haizz~
this is the trouble of the “Wage earners”，i swear i won't do wage earners anymore~
I want be a boss!!!~and I wanna earn much money!!!~~~
wuwuuwuwuwuwuw~~~


so sad tomorrow still need to working la T.T~~

Originally tomorrow I can sleep until natural wake up and tonight can late to sleep and I can do anything I want and can save a little bit money for the bus fare and eat inexpensive food(lunch and dinner )!!!~~~~really suck = =


well~
eleven thirty 11:30 already~
I think is the time to sleep,cause I still need to work(really really feeling suck fuck zzzzz),
so
time to bed
shit~
not brush my teeth yet!!!~~~~~~~ZZZZzzz

finally

finally, I close my comic，
and i know what I need to do now~
yes~
I now~
and will do~

I spend much time at do nothing~
and something I think it is a right thing, but finally I discovery it is wasting my time only~
like drawing, sketching, draw comic，reading novel, find some job about illustrator,
will maybe them hear good, but actually really wasting my time only.
cause all of they is no use for now what i need to do~
I mean, is not yet~
now what i need to do is learning right?
just learn what i need to learn now~
other just wait i graduation ~
will~
start it tomorrow~
good night~

Recently

Long time no come here already.
then no mean I'm busy or working.
just no mood come here to write something only.

well..
just talking about recently what I'm doing.I working at a small company, but say it is small, them also got 30++ staffs working on there. more of them is animator. seven include me is illustrator.although I no do animation, but stay at company one mouth ago. I already know some knowledge about an animation process.well, this is just only basic.but this is good for me to learning something.


And second is all my colleagues them chat is use in English. not all but most.
the company more is Malay colleague. them normal chat is use Malay.talking with me was use English. Except my supervise. he English not really good.hehe.well, is ok. although my BM not really good, but still can hear he(I think),but I really hope all of them talk with me use English. although I also can't understand. but at less I can hear the work. I can learn, I can touch..whatever.

well, there also got Chinese working at then err... eight people I think. sometime we have get lunch together. is them chat use English also? the answer is sometime. as I know, have two person them normal language is English(Maybe three?)them read English paper. watch English Movie(no Chinese subtitle!, but some of they have English subtitle).but, some time them well chat in Chinese.what can I say? them really good.

than you well ask, them chat used English, than how about me? haha~

actually, I really less to talk.very very less. when I talk, also used Chinese.I have no enough confidence and practice to use English. (say serious, I have no idea how can I live at other west country)well, my head was paining...just don think about if first..

Decide

will..
Today I have do a lot of research about the school..college..KLCC..room and something this few days I need to decide..
the first thing need to do is....ya..improve..haiz..

All of this really make me tired..I know...no body can help me, and no body can guide me a nice way to do it..（Actually, I have asking many people about that, include Miss Tan/NEC teacher/My aunt(a teacher)/some friend)but..them tell me that methods of studies is very personality.the methods of them is not useful to me.

(p/s: All the methods will need so much money...)

so...

I have to find a way to continue my studies..
yes..I can do it right?~hehe~~

Wasting

hehe~
I think...
I have waste today also...
At first I have planing today need to do the portfolio and tomorrow go to cziplee print out..
but I also know my Character..I already know I will not going to do that..
so..
today what have I done?~
will...
I have get the friend at Facebook who study at the college,but need tomorrow ask he something..
because he was time to sleep...
Tomorrow monitor have create a party. she have invite we go her home..
don't know have how many classmate have go her party ...cause we have graduation already, and now was during Chinese New Year..many people without at hometown, some of them was go to play and stay with family right?~~

will..
mast be improve....

Design Life

Well...
After Chinese New Year,I come back to Kajang..
I think...
I'm rested enough at CNY..
Although today I have do nothing..
But I know something I have to do it..
continue study/ find tutorial/ print portfolio/ check out the Ria bedroom/ cut the P1 line/.....
and something I don't know yet..but have to do thing...

Never design your character like a garden where anyone can walk. Design your character like the sky where everyone desire to reach

I like this sentence..
well...
I can do it right? :)

Travel

well,
tomorrow need wake up at 9am(it mean I need set alarm at 8:30am)
but now I still sitting at my computer and writing blog...
I can not sleep ,not tried..because today I wake up at 1:30pm = =

tomorrow have a short travel..
well...
here I need to say...
the word "travel"....was use about RM16.50 to learn...
why I say like that?
because I buy a magazine is bilingual diving magazine..
and the bilingual diving magazine was selling RM16.50...

when I buy..I think I can learn more at the magazine, but I think I'm wrong..
cause that is boring to me...
haizz..
never mine,
cause I have learn that work "travel"
that is very good thing to me:)
hehe..