About..

err...
I have buy a book
actually is a lot of the book about learning English.
But I think that is not use for me..
I mean....yes... maybe they are very good book..is good for learning English..
But I have no read it, how could I learn it?

I'm lazy or what? or not really like English, maybe I should focus at Chinese language.
No!!
I can't think like that!

I like English,
I Dreaming some day I can hear they at movie or radio or talk with real people....
I really want like that...
but no more the confident and no more practice only?
haiz....
I'm dislike my habit of lazy...
I need to improve myself !

Limited

I was limited in the box...
...
I want design something~
but when I come back, I already very tired at all..
can play few minutes Facebook. and than was the time to bed...
Saturday and Sunday wanna take a rest...
I hv design the idea at company, today I plan when I come back, at less draw some at paper..
but I just hv one hour..take a bath and Brush my teeth, that is no enough time to do...
really limited myself ...


is the time to quit the job?
is the time to find a new job?
or just can continue only..
the freelance is can't earn per day RM50(my frd per day RM60)...
I need to pay my internet and rent room money...and every days eat and Daily necessities...

I really need the money..
to do anything I want..
if do the thing I like, and can earn money..this is more good at all...
I want find a job I love and can Feed themselves..
if can..earn more money is nothing bad....
salary is not only way can earn money...
but other way to earn money..
the first thing is you need a lot of money to do that thing...
dream or reality..
can I mix them?~~~
can do it Together?~
can, but need find the way....

this is what I need to do...
find the way...
 

Have A Nice Day :)

well~~
today have a little crazy day I think....
first thing is,
today when I wake up, I really feeling very bad at all,I'm tired, hungry, no mood at all, and many bad emotion.
but second thinking is, this situation is fate or something like that? or just only a normal part on my life, that have nothing meaning..just a happening only.
when I arrive work place, I still thinking about it~
I thinking this is only 2 situation can be happening, if not I will very angry on He(my supervise).
first one is really have many job need to do(cause is call me coming back just do that normal job,that one I can finish at the deadline job only,I say that I can finish at deadline already than why still want me working at the just tow days can break day?）

second one is, ok fine ,that is nothing can do at company, than maybe we can just do at morning or afternoon only,(if nothing can do still want me still that until seven pm, I will mad too, although I mad already)

when I arrive company, a strange happening, I arrive at 9:45,and I saw the door is open, when I going up the stairs, I saw he coming down and say that the key is wrong, and than we going out and he close the door = =

and that I asking he what the meaning? that mean I can go home? = =
he say the key is wrong already and can't get in the company,so can't do anything = =

well..well..well..
of course I feeling happy, but still have little perplex is that I wake up early and come here for what? = = for nothing?~~~ = =

ok
I decide go to one u watch movie, although the recent new and best movie I saw already, but never mind, any movie also can, cause I need Appease the sense of dissatisfaction I get up early.

And I also think if really no any nice movie to see, I see witch movie is coming soon or looking for some book shop also can....

well~~

I saw "Brave" in 3D, cause the 2D want 27th just coming, and other movie not I saw already, than is not my favorite. 
well~~~3D some of the effect is really good, but some time the screen is very blur and not clean at all..

oh...one more thing is siting at my left side is a single younger girl~~hehe~~

well~~~and than I go popular buy 2 really inexpensive book of Giddens, and buy a USB adder, and some Note and a gum ...use RM82, and the movie ticket RM18, so I already use RM100 at one day, and the bus come and back RM4 and my lunch and dinner RM9 and a fruit honeydew RM1, so that day I use RM114 already~~(wow, I good to use money a day? = =)

I coming back at 3pm,and than take a break and get internet and sleep hour and a haft. and the house is no body at home this moment. so I have a quiet and nice afternoon. that feeling is really good at all, and I more like it :)


well~~~
hope every body have a nice day :)

Bored

this is an old post at my desktop, and I'm be bored to see it at my desktop.
so I now drop it at here and I can delete it already.wahahahaha~

this is the first one but I forget write down the date, but I think is same the day or before the day only. 

19 May 2012.(or before):

Ok, I think I try to learn more English at this moment, because I cannot get internet here, (or you can say for now only?) wherever, I still learning more English right now. Well, some time I’m lazy to learn, cause this is boring thing right? Although I feeling interesting before, but if all my word(I mean the easy word for me) already use or write down, then I need to find out another word not yet write down, this is difficult to thinking, to discovery or something like that. When that happen, I well feel lazy to read, or learn, or thinking, or something…….

Anyway, I already write down something right? Per day can learn one word that I feeling happy already. No need ten word or more. And I no need to “Must remember” this way.If don’t remember, this is ok for me, because some word when you have saw it before, you must have something impress at your mind. Although you can’t remember it, but still can spell the Spelling, or remember some of the word, or can say “Hei, I Saw it before, although I can’t remember” 

19 May 2012, today is Saturday, no need go to work, and I have no planning go where watch movie or shopping or something need to do at outside. Today except go out buy my dinner and lunch, I all the day were at my room. 

And today have a new housemate come this house. Is 2 Chinese girl, just at beside my room only. I not yet meet them, so, I cannot tell you is they beauty or not, but I think they the one already have boyfriend….wow! wait a minute !! what I thinking for? = = is that mean they one will be my girl or something? What I always thinking like this? = = oh my god = =….ok ok..is ok, just…like this….

well, I no need girlfriend right now, cause I still need go to New Zealand next year, if I already have a girlfriend, I want she wait me one year again? My Ex girlfriend(I think she is?)already can’t wait me 3 year when I still study at New Era College(maybe less at 3 years, the year I know her is the last at 2009).well, wherever, this already is past of my life, although I don’t know is her is my or what..oh fuck, I hate this past in my life, Why all I love they didn’t no love me, then is too far? what happen in my life for the “love” part ? 

The lonely sometime I feeling no so good, although some time I love it, but something, I still need someone to talk, or sharing something , maybe some feeling what I get, or some happening in my life, or some in  my mind…haiz~ Never mine, I still can standing up, I remember some day, maybe tomorrow or some future, I can find the who I lone, I she will love me back, the special one. I know I will find out you!!~~~

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ok,

this is all,when I not have internet yet, I write it at my computer.

talking about my life without internet and without love = =

well,now I can delete it already,when I want read it back, I think I can find it at here = =

ok, really time to sleep le, like just now I say,I'm felling tired and tomorrow still need to work,(again, really suck = =)

Work saturday !

the legend of korra,my colleague say that is nice animation~
so I take it from company and start to watch~
when I start seeing ,my feeling is "wow!~why the concept is very same like the story I wanna tr to draw at comic?~"
really!~
the concept I already thinking at my mind before I saw the animation~
yes~
have a longer story in my mind~
and I'm try to write it down and then draw it to a comic~
but have many cause, so i won't start it first~(actually one of the reason is lazy la~hehehe~~~)

and one thing I want to say is tomorrow I still need go to work~
really boring really sian~
I can handing my work~
I mean, I can finish my job at the deadline, than why I still want come back to work ?~
that is because my supervise he late doing he job,and my job is need to retake by he,he late do he job, so implicate me now~
haizz~
this is the trouble of the “Wage earners”，i swear i won't do wage earners anymore~
I want be a boss!!!~and I wanna earn much money!!!~~~
wuwuuwuwuwuwuw~~~


so sad tomorrow still need to working la T.T~~

Originally tomorrow I can sleep until natural wake up and tonight can late to sleep and I can do anything I want and can save a little bit money for the bus fare and eat inexpensive food(lunch and dinner )!!!~~~~really suck = =


well~
eleven thirty 11:30 already~
I think is the time to sleep,cause I still need to work(really really feeling suck fuck zzzzz),
so
time to bed
shit~
not brush my teeth yet!!!~~~~~~~ZZZZzzz

Travel

well,
tomorrow need wake up at 9am(it mean I need set alarm at 8:30am)
but now I still sitting at my computer and writing blog...
I can not sleep ,not tried..because today I wake up at 1:30pm = =

tomorrow have a short travel..
well...
here I need to say...
the word "travel"....was use about RM16.50 to learn...
why I say like that?
because I buy a magazine is bilingual diving magazine..
and the bilingual diving magazine was selling RM16.50...

when I buy..I think I can learn more at the magazine, but I think I'm wrong..
cause that is boring to me...
haizz..
never mine,
cause I have learn that work "travel"
that is very good thing to me:)
hehe..

Change

Today is I coming back Kajang first day..
ya..
got some tired now..
have many thing need to do, but I'm very lazy to do anything now..
But,
give all of my artwork a picture box, this is not very difficulty isn't it?

So...
It ok...
I think I can do it..

And...
One more thing I need to talk is..
Some people, them State of mind..has change...
well....It mean..can change...
or..when I feeling some ppl is good, than all for then is good, any they say something or doing something is good..
when you come out and see again...
them just general..
Just like you and me...

well...
I feeling not just general..
everything is change..
Right?

Bad Mood day!!!

Today don't know why o..
I have a bad bad bad mood...
playing DotA is lose...
parent tall me can not buy a phone
the school have many thing need to do
I will going back to college soon.....
I felling my artwork is going to due line ...
I stay at home can't do anything
ZZ

Really bad mood today
now is 3am at Saturday,tomorrow need go back old house,is my grandmother house to help her do something, is about a festival...diu~really Siazzzz1!!~

haizzzz
have a good news is thw would of warcraft is going done...hope can play it!
If can't
today really bad bad day!!

Sian

When I come back hometown,
I have no write this blog anymore...

err...
not lazy..
just feeling very relax and enjoy in playing DotA...or something ba..

Ya, I still got learning,but this time is less to watch or read...I got watch the 16$ magazine, the magazine TALK about diver, and sea, and some fish underwater..but if In-depth view..also can learn many word ...I think....

haiz..
still have many need to learn, still have many need to do...

many word I can't read, can't understand, and some word I have search already but when I saw I have forget it...well...I feel very xian for this...really sian......Zzzz

Tired

This few days..

I have no learning anything..
don't know why...
maybe..
just tired? just feeling boring?
or just thinking this is no meaning..?..

some time, like now...
I asking myself why I try to study so difficult?~
study is a fun thing? is study too hard, then we except study nothing, also feeling very pressure right?~

So....
Ya..

This few days I'm feeling some pressure, tired, boring. some difficult and I feeling"fuck it"
And sometime I think very much..
I mean...I study because I hope have a great diploma, or degree？ or I can speak smooth and fluent English, so I can give a nice job..

after I got a nice job, I can earn a lot of money, and then I can use the money to "buy" a great future or life? I can have a better life, I can really enjoy my life and this is all I want..

But ..when I'm a student, except homework have some pressure, my life of now is very plentiful isn't?
I no need to work, I no need cope girlfriend (although I have no gf, but this is not just a pretense, I mean if I have gf..I maybe will lose something...maybe I won't continue to study or something?~en......)

So..
All I want to say is, now I life is not nothing bad right? so I enjoy it right now, and I like when to study then I study,I like when to play or sleep then I go to play or sleep..
ya..this is what I want..

But...
I also know, this is what time I need to study..I mean...I'm student right?~
student sure need to study now, If go work..that ..haiz..

I know what should I do...but not now, I mean.. I'm tired now..and now is holiday, anybody some go home, some playing, some planing go travel...

But also have somebody continue study something? some improve them artwork, some learn more technical, and some maybe planing studies road or working road or something..ya...maybe/..

anyway..
this is all what I want to say...
maybe tomorrow I will feeling better...maybe...
ya...I am ok..
this is nothing big deal..
=)