Tired

This few days..

I have no learning anything..
don't know why...
maybe..
just tired? just feeling boring?
or just thinking this is no meaning..?..

some time, like now...
I asking myself why I try to study so difficult?~
study is a fun thing? is study too hard, then we except study nothing, also feeling very pressure right?~

So....
Ya..

This few days I'm feeling some pressure, tired, boring. some difficult and I feeling"fuck it"
And sometime I think very much..
I mean...I study because I hope have a great diploma, or degree？ or I can speak smooth and fluent English, so I can give a nice job..

after I got a nice job, I can earn a lot of money, and then I can use the money to "buy" a great future or life? I can have a better life, I can really enjoy my life and this is all I want..

But ..when I'm a student, except homework have some pressure, my life of now is very plentiful isn't?
I no need to work, I no need cope girlfriend (although I have no gf, but this is not just a pretense, I mean if I have gf..I maybe will lose something...maybe I won't continue to study or something?~en......)

So..
All I want to say is, now I life is not nothing bad right? so I enjoy it right now, and I like when to study then I study,I like when to play or sleep then I go to play or sleep..
ya..this is what I want..

But...
I also know, this is what time I need to study..I mean...I'm student right?~
student sure need to study now, If go work..that ..haiz..

I know what should I do...but not now, I mean.. I'm tired now..and now is holiday, anybody some go home, some playing, some planing go travel...

But also have somebody continue study something? some improve them artwork, some learn more technical, and some maybe planing studies road or working road or something..ya...maybe/..

anyway..
this is all what I want to say...
maybe tomorrow I will feeling better...maybe...
ya...I am ok..
this is nothing big deal..
=)